Last Thursday and Friday I was in a fantastic and productive mood. (Big difference from my pickle day.)
It’s so funny how my mood takes a turn for the positive when I’m busy, productive and feeling motivated. I’ve always said, the more I have to do – the more I seem to get done and the better I feel. Burning the candle at both ends really brings out the best in me.
So this past Monday I gave my formal acceptance of the new role. I start on March 1st splitting my time transitioning between the current and new role, with a goal of spending 100% of my time in the new role by the end of March.
Yesterday I worked from home. As I sat in my living room typing away and not having much in person contact with others I started to feel anxious and flat out uncomfortable with my decision to make this career change.
Am I making a mistake? I have to give up more than I realized…
- My own personal office
- A boss I have had for 6 years and therefore know what her goals and pet peeves are
- A team that is positive, hard-working and respects me as the expert
- A flexible schedule in that I can state when I need to take lunch outside of the office, run to the doctor’s or take vacation
- Working from home – I work on Tuesdays from home. I imagine for at least the first few months I won’t be working from home
- Confidence – in every meeting, on every call, during each project – I knew the right answers, I knew the questions they’d ask, I just felt like I knew it all.
- Comfort – after 6 years, I’m flat out comfortable. I don’t worry or stress about coming into work. In fact, I’m pretty meh about it in general.
So what is the payoff to keep going through this discomfort?
- A new skillset
- A mentor I respect and am looking forward to working with
- Training and certification for my PMP paid for by the company that will help me in my career forever (if I pass…)
- Managing projects and no longer being in a support role (one that caused too many last second late nights, cancelled plans, 2 am calls)
- A career path that will allow me to have kids, reduce hours or move up, move between industries (if I want)
- The option to work two days a week from home (after a certain amount of time)
- A career path that will allow me to higher my salary without fully losing my work/life balance
Fake it until I make it? I want to do this. I can do this. I will push past this discomfort and keep going.