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Archive for May 16th, 2010

B has been on my mind on and off all day. Mainly because it’s his birthday. He’s 28 today. We are almost exactly 2.5 years apart. I sent him a text at about 7:45am to wish him a Happy Birthday to which he immediately responded and we had a couple playful back and forths where I promised I’d be calling to leave a singing Happy Birthday message later tonight.
 
I spent the day with the girls – being lazy which was exactly what I wanted to do. Lounging around, watching movies, eating way way way too much food made me a content girl.
 
Around 8:30ish I gave B a call to sing Happy Birthday but he picked up! He immediately said his Mom and Sister had just been talking about me (every year he takes his Mom and Sister away for a weekend before Memorial Day as somewhat of a tradition. I find it super sweet.) Anyway, we chatted a little especially about the fact that I had watched Leap Year earlier in the day and the scenes in Dingle and outside Poppies in Enniskerry were so strange because Dingle was our favorite favorite place while we were in Ireland this past January and Poppies was right near where we stayed and had breakfast twice – on our first day and our last day. Then he mentioned he wanted to keep it a surprise but had to tell me – he put money down for a down payment on a car. Big news. There’s something scary about it and I think it’s knowing that now that he has a car it’s unlikely he’ll spend any weekends in Boston but at the same time he sounded really happy so I’m happy for him.
 
I just find myself thinking about him…a lot. And fantasizing about getting back together. Not healthy. Bound for a letdown. Scary. It’s like I’m blocking everything out from before. Even if he came back, it doesn’t take away that he left. Ugh I can’t let myself thinking about it.
 
But I can hear in his voice being how excited he is to talk to me. Knowing his family was talking about me doesn’t help. Knowing he can’t wait to go rock climbing together and talked about it again on the phone. The whole thing is so strange it’s just not worth thinking about. He’s just different. I can’t even begin to try to explain how different he is from any guy I’ve ever met, but he is. Maybe one day when I’m ready for a blogging therapy day I’ll write more about our relationship. Just saying our relationship still stings.
 
Anyway, it was a fantastic low-key, lots of sleep, and full of girl-time weekend. Tomorrow is Tri Training day 1. I’m going to just take a spinning class to cover my biking tomorrow.
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