Archive for December 13th, 2010

We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face… we must do that which we think we cannot. – Eleanor Roosevelt

I keep reminding myself that I was never more terrified than the morning of my first triathlon. Or the mornings before huge meetings. Or those stomach twisting few hours before  date.

But each of those scenarios is worth is. Because from each one I learn something invaluable, something I would not have learned without trying.

My triathlon brought me a strength and a confidence I would have never, ever known existed prior. It also brought me a happiness and a feeling of accomplishment that was more than worth the hard work to get there.

When I leave those huge scary meetings, I come out feeling alive, and excited about my job and confident about myself. And when it’s a horrendous meeting and I feel like I wasn’t my best, I can reflect and figure out why and it challenges me to step it up.

And the dates. Ohh those dates. I hate the few hours before them. While so far they’ve been lame, they got me back out there and they made me realize that men were interested in me.

This Wednesday I start my lunchtime reading program. I get to leave my corporate office and sit with a 1st grader during his lunch and read to him. 🙂  While I’m excited (the librarian in me wants to make everyone love reading), I’m nervous. What if he doesn’t like me? What if he doesn’t want to listen to me read? What if he likes my counterpart (who I alternate weeks with) better? Why am I so scared of a 1st grader?

I know though that in the end, there might be good days and bad days with my match but it’ll be worth it. I think it’s time I start thinking about what other opportunities are out there that are scary, but are worth it…

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