Posts Tagged ‘fresh start’

You know what I say in regards to January ending?


I am actually pretty thankful to put January behind me and start a fresh month with a fresh attitude. While January had some great times, for whatever reason there was a dark energy around me for most of it…

I spent all of January sick. I kid you not, I had a cold that started around Christmas and never went away. This past week I have finally started to sleep through the night without waking up in a coughing fit and having to chug Nyquil. The difference of getting 4 hours of sleep a night to 7 is spectacular.

I spent all of January running from one thing to the next, feeling like I was making everyone around me happy and thankful… but feeling so empty as a result. I just wasn’t taking care of myself. Every weekend was booked to the max, as were many week nights, including my new week night work calls and therefore I wasn’t taking care of myself. (It’s funny I have read something similar on so many other blogs.)

I’d also like to forget the fact that there was a night where a crazy person tried to run the Husband over. Luckily he wasn’t successful but it was way too close to either the Husband getting run over, or the Husband having to shoot someone – neither of which are good outcomes. He tried to hide it from me but I overheard his Chief call to talk about it and thank him for keeping such a calm head and figuring out a way to arrest the guy without an outcome of death on either side. I do pretty well most of the time at ignoring what it really means to be in his line of work but that was a not so fun in-my-face reminder.

I’d also like to put behind me the night Bentley and I spent at the ER as a result of him eating my thong. Almost funny now…at the time, not funny! They induced vomiting quickly (luckily I saw him grab it and swallow it) so we were able to get to the ER and they could get it back up before any potential blockage occurred. As a result of their suggestion, I need to look into pet insurance. We’re also working hard on “drop-it” in our obedience class.

Anyway, I’m ready to move forward and not even look back!

First, I do have some fun plans coming up in February:

-A joint birthday workout/massage day with a friend
-A full on date night of dinner and a movie with the Husband
-A 30th birthday party for a friend
-A full sister day of nails, yoga, movies, and shopping (my little sister had her heart broken…a post for another time)
-A baby shower
-A visit from college friends (the best way to end the month, can’t wait!)

A few things I plan to do this month to make it more positive.

I’m adding into my calendar a week night each week, and a few weekend days that I’m blocking off and not making plans. Maybe I’ll end up with last minute plans, but knowing I have some time to recharge makes me feel better.

I’m going to stop procrastinating. I have this bad habit of feeling exhausted by the time I get home that I sit down and watch TV but the entire time I’m stressing about packing my work bag, my workout clothes, the growing piles of laundry, skimming work emails, etc. I would like to take 30 minutes every Sunday night and line up my week of work outfits and workout clothes so that each night it’s as simple as throwing it in my bag.

I’m coming up with a cleaning schedule. Having our house in a constant state of chaos has this seriously stressful effect on me that is always on my mind. Even if it’s 15 minutes a day to keep it somewhat tidy would probably do wonders for my life.

I’m getting myself back to a place where half-ironman training is fun. Becelisa was a great reminder and supporter of this. I’m so stressed about following my plan to a T that it’s not fun, I’m skipping workouts and it’s like this heavy weight on me at all times. Instead, I’m going to focus on getting 5 workouts in a week, targeting the areas I can do my best in (bike and run) rather than 6 days of workouts that feel so stressful I don’t do them at all. I’ll probably have a longer post around this as I work on it.

I’m going to put more effort into my marriage and date nights. Things are good with the Husband but we both have started to want to add more date time in and he actually sent me a great article on the rules of marriage and there a few things in there that we both want to actively start focusing on. Even though he is my top priority, it’s so easy to make him feel last (and vice versa) because it’s easier to partake in other obligations. But in reality when we do that, we fight, we feel crappy, and we miss out. Since our schedules are so opposite and for a while there every time he had time off we were doing things with friends or family which is great, we’ve just really missed out on time for just “us”.

Anyway, it feels like a lot of, “I’m going to” right now. It’s time to get to a place of “I am”.



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Last week I returned to work on Monday. On Monday evening I got a call from my younger sister that she was headed to the ER. 26 hours later, I took her home, without her appendix. It was a long night and following day – with little sleep, another missed day of work, and many crazy emotions.

To say I felt overwhelmed last week is an understatement. It was a hurricane of emotions – exhaustion, worry,  stress about family stuff, stress about work, stress about moving, stress about the upcoming Atlantic City bachelorette, stress about it all. On top of it, I had another urinary tract infection – leaving me uncomfortable and in pain.

But on Thursday, we went and got our keys to our new place and did a quick walk through. Sure it’s not as updated as our current place, but I just have this good feeling about it. It’s a happy place, An easy, cozy, sunny place.

And the weekend ended up being a ton of fun. Too much fun actually. I spent Sunday morning hugging the toilet. Apparently, having not had more than one glass of wine for months, and then having quite a few shots and vodka drinks meant my body hating me all yesterday. Getting into the car for the two-hour drive, then onto my flight back to Boston was about as miserable as it could get. Talk about reminding myself why I normally stick to 1-2 drinks.

Today, I’m working from home. I’m getting ready to start packing tonight. We’re headed over to do a quick clean of our new apartment. And tomorrow I took off. I’ll be finishing the packing before heading into work on Wednesday. Wednesday morning will be the last time I commute in from my current place. Wednesday evening I’ll be heading home to my new place. NEW PLACE!

I can’t wait.

This morning feels almost Fall like. Sunny, breezy, and mid-60’s. Something about it feels so fresh, and goes so well with the fresh start of our new place.

I love August in New England. I love the warm sunny days, and the breezy cooler evenings.

I love that we’re moving and starting fresh. New routines, new areas to explore, new memories to be made. The path to saving and buying a home, and starting a family.



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We’re moving!

Last weekend the Husband and I officially decided, we needed a fresh start. It was just time to get out of our current apartment. We let our landlords know we wouldn’t be renewing our lease and started searching online for apartments.

And we found one. We’re amidst the lease process now and we would make our actual move mid-summer. Is the new apartment perfect? Not at all. It’s not as updated as our current place or as big (bye-bye second bathroom) but here’s what we love:

  • It’s still a 2 bedroom, with the master up a little level which is a nice separation from the living room, kitchen, office, etc. The second bedroom is huge and leaves enough room for it to still be our guest bedroom and office.
  • There’s ample storage space.
  • Our lease would start a bit before our current one ends. Meaning we could move in slowly, set up everything exactly how we want it and even get some new furniture to make it really feel like home.
  • There’s a small area before coming up the stairs to the apartment that currently has an elliptical in it. The current owners set up cable and a small area for a TV so if you want to put a treadmill or other machine and watch TV you can.
  • It’s so sunny. We could see that in the pictures and then as soon as we went inside every room felt open and filled with light. It just felt like a happy place.
  • It has a big eat-in kitchen with a small deck connected. I think this might be a great way to get the Husband and I out of the habit of eating in front of the TV.
  • It has a driveway for both our cars and street parking. Unless you have lived in our part of the city, you can’t imagine the cluster f*ck that parking is – I couldn’t even have my car which has constantly left me feeling stranded.
  • It is in a cute little neighborhood with many young families, trees and parks.
  • It’s about a mile from the one free commuter train station outside of Boston. I can drive and park (if I get there early, which I would with my gym schedule) or I can walk on nice days.
  • While miles outside of the city, my train ride will be a good amount shorter than my current bus commute – bye bye traffic!
  • It’s pet friendly… we are talking about getting a chocolate lab! (Much research and planning to come before fully deciding on that kind of commitment though.)

And last but certainly not least, we’ll be saving $1,000 a month in rent. That’s an additional $12,000 that we’ll have at the end of the lease to put towards a down payment on a house.


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The other night after gorging on multiple plates of Chinese food, I opened up my fortune cookie…

“Release and let go. Live simply with joy in the present.”

It’s time for a fresh start. A reset. A clean slate.

The past three weeks have been crazy. In fact I’ve drafted at least 5 blog posts that I never finished. Weekend trips to Buffalo, Rhode Island, and having numerous family members and friends stay for long weekends (or random week nights). A baby shower, a wedding shower, a 5 mile race and morning workout classes before work 4 days a week. The new boss starting, and big complex projects handed my way. Quick unhealthy food options – due to letting myself get far too hungry and then choosing fast food, BBQ foods, countless cookie binges and just double the portion sizes. Seeing the Husband only in passing – literally in passing – to the point where we have had far too many fights, all about the same thing. We’re exhausted and we miss each other.

My focus on the rest of June is all about letting go, starting clean, and living in the present.

Part of that will involve clean eating for the remainder of the month. That means no processed foods but choosing to eat whole, unrefined foods. It means no alcohol, sweets, or dairy cheeses. It means a lot more fruit and vegetables. I’m actually taking part of the June clean and lean challenge to motivate and push myself through. [I will be technically cheating on one thing: caffeine. I will be having my daily coffee. ] After only a couple of days of at least 5 servings of vegetables a day, 2 serving of fruit, lean protein, unprocessed complex carbs, healthy fats and absurd amounts of water, I feel fantastic. For the first time in weeks I don’t feel bloated.

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Part of that involves letting go of any resentments or silly battles that I have with the Husband. We had a nice long chat this past Sunday about both of us making more of an effort to have quality time together, to stop nagging each other in the moments we do get to see each other, and to be more kind and thoughtful – even if we are exhausted or busy. This month we’ll have a few quality date times together and all I want to focus on is just enjoying the present time with him.

Part of that involves fewer plans and racing around. Saying no to things that aren’t important or that I just don’t want to do. Instead I have a few nights scheduled where I can head home, cook a nice dinner, watch TV and relax by myself. Fewer plans but more quality. Like a full beach day with my best friend this weekend. Or attending my cousin’s first wedding dress fitting appointment. Or a Father’s day BBQ with the Husband’s family. Or an afternoon with the Husband for apartment hunting – we officially want to move. (FRESH start!)

I’m excited. I just feel like mentally, physically, and emotionally I’ve been carrying around a lot of extra weight and it’s time to let it all go and start clean.

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