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Spoke too soon

Last night I met up with my best friend for dinner. We sat and chatted for a few hours while I ate a delicious burger and repeatedly mentioned how thankful I was that so far, I feel pretty great in this pregnancy.

Fast forward to 1am.

I woke up and the room was spinning. Vertigo and nausea to the extreme. Went downstairs and tried to eat a cracker and drink a little water. Sat for a few minutes telling myself it would pass.

Stood up, looked at the bathroom, and then very suddenly began heaving up that burger. I swear the entire thing came back up undigested.

While still nauseous, I felt a little better, but knew it would be a long time before I fell asleep. I laid on the couch and put the TV on and drifted in and out of a light sleep, always aware of the nausea.

This morning, while again feeling loads better than the few moments before I had violently thrown up, I still don’t feel right. I almost feel like I have the worst hangover of my life. Queasy yet hungry, but the idea of any food makes me dry heave. Tired with a headache. Just all around, not great.

Clearly, I spoke too soon. At just over 6 weeks this morning sickness is right on schedule.

Now the word burger, let alone the idea of the smell or taste of one, makes me want to die. Keep the meat away. Far, far, far away.

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5 Weeks

On Sunday I successfully hit 5 weeks. It’s still so early, but I really want to try to post updates since I know at some point I’ll want to look back at all of this.

Weight gained:
Zero. I feel bloated and swollen already – so much so that at times I unbutton my pants, but so far no actual weight gain. It’s funny, I’m far less concerned with the weight gain than I ever thought I would be (but then it’s still early). I want to have a healthy pregnancy, and therefore I don’t plan on eating everything in sight, but at the same time – I’m growing a human and I’m going to gain weight! I’ll take growing a human any day over worrying about the damn weight gain.

Workouts:
Sadly, just a few walks. I got really anxious in the early stages of my pregnancy and took a step back from exercising (note: Google is not your friend in early pregnancy). Until I have my first ultrasound I may skip my vigorous Flywheel classes and moving my whole schedule around to get workouts in. So far I’ve been going on regular 2 mile hikes with Bentley and more than anything, I’d love to get swimming back into my weekly routine.

Symptoms:
Very mild cramping on and off since I got my positive. Last Thursday I woke up with a horrific head cold out of nowhere, and it’s still lingering around causing me to have no voice at times. I also have had an increase in headaches (seems to happen easily if I’m dehydrated or have too much sodium). Otherwise, truthfully, I feel great right now and I’m trying to take advantage of that before fatigue and morning sickness potentially hit.

Food Aversions:
None really. Sometimes things are starting to smell sort of funny or strong.

Food Cravings:
I consistently want steak with A1 sauce, sweet potatoes and corn chex with cold skim milk. This could just be me wanting these things though. It seems overall I am definitely wanting more salty/food items versus desserts which is interesting.

Sleep:
Between week 3 and 4 I was not sleeping. I had pretty bad insomnia and it was brutal. Now I am sleeping really deeply and well, with the exception of sometimes waking up with cramps or having to pee.

Miss Anything?
Coffee, oh coffee – I.miss.you. I’m still having decaf and once in a while a small (or small half caf half decaf) but man do I miss grabbing a venti blonde roast from Starbucks and the chatty energy it gave me! There’s just something so comforting about sipping on a giant coffee while working, or driving around doing errands on a Saturday morning.

Otherwise not missing too much. Once I thought about not being able to have things I craved a glass of white wine and sushi, but really I’m OK without right now.

The only other thing is I feel sort of like I’m missing is that I’m hiding a bit from certain friends and scenarios because I’m just not ready to tell the world. I miss being honest!

Fun and/or Interesting Things from the Week:
I got to have blood work done which for me was fun because it gave me confirmation my hormone levels are rising nicely. Also, since my first pre-natal appointment wasn’t originally scheduled until July 7th and I would not be getting an ultrasound done at that one, my wonderful doctor offered to set up one for me earlier on July 3rd. I think once I hear the heart beat this will all feel real.

Also, the Husband and I officially picked names – we agreed upon the boy name and the girl name – and we also decided… we aren’t telling anyone! It’s nice to feel like we have one secret together.

Happy or moody most of the time:
Mostly happy overall, but definitely moments of irritability and overreacting (compared to how I normally react). I swear I have waves of rage that seem to come out of nowhere and then minutes later I am fine and feel like it was a crazy person. I have definitely also had a few instances of laughing then crying then laughing again. Overall though, I just feel so beyond blessed, happy and excited.

New Baby Items:
Aside from the ASU onesie I used to tell the Husband, none. I think we plan on waiting until after our first ultrasound and the house closing before we get anything baby related.

Looking Forward To:
Oh my – so much! I’m trying to take it one day at a time but in no particular order just a few things I’m looking forward to:
-Hearing the baby’s heart beat (and seeing the blueberry sized baby)
-Telling the world! We aren’t telling until mid-August when I’m between 12-14 weeks so the wait is killing us
-Buying pregnancy/baby related books
-Buying maternity wear (Yes, I am actually excited for this, ha)
-Finding out the gender (Yes, we are 100% finding out. I don’t like surprises.)

 

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Coffee was, and let’s be honest, still is, one of my most favorite things in the world.

On an average day I will have a cup of keurig coffee at home, a venti blonde roast from starbucks, and usually another 16 ounces of coffee from my office.

I love the smell of it, the warm happiness it always brings.

I love waking up and first thing sipping a hot mug of coffee. On sunny days, rainy days, and wintry snow days – I just love it.

I love how it reminds me of road trips.

I love the me time behind it. My first cup of coffee each morning is usually by myself. It’s quiet and peaceful.

I love the social aspect of it too. How having a cup of coffee during the day or weekend mornings with someone usually includes conversation and time to connect.

I truly, deeply, love coffee. Giving it up was so, so hard.

But it’s been worth every single second because just a few weeks ago I started growing what is already one of my most favorite things in the world. And keeping that someone healthy and growing is more important to me than my coffee addiction.

Yes. Yes, I am.

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God willing, Baby Pursuit of Happiness…expected February 2015*. 🙂

*I know it’s extremely early. If you know me IRL or on social media, please do not post about this. We haven’t told many people yet but more than anything I need to talk about it. The process to get “here”. The fears, anxieties, and overwhelming feeling of happiness. I need an outlet. So while the rest of the world still won’t know for a bit of time, this place will. And if God forbid, it doesn’t work out this time, I know this will be a place I’ll turn to.

 

 

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It’s been so long since I have been able to write.

I had the most amazing, most relaxing, most wonderful week in paradise with all the girls on my Mom’s side.

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I came home content, content with life, not having any crazy fitness goals right now, just focusing on having great days and enjoying every day.

Right before my trip my Husband and I made a decision. For some time now, I’d say since December or so we’ve talked seriously about wanting a family. But we kept thinking ok now isn’t the perfect time because so and so is getting married, or this or that is happening, or we have to do that. But right before going to STT we both realized, it’s the perfect time for us. For us emotionally, financially, and job-wise. Sure we may have to alter some social plans but we both are ready and we both want to take this step.

So I got so excited, went out and got an ovulation kit to start to understand my body a little more and we thought, let’s get trying. Quickly I realized though, my ovulation time was while in STT (almost comical, I would be fertile at earliest the Saturday there and at latest the end of the week there). So we didn’t think anything of it really, and decided to try the month later and just have fun until then.

Well I came home and sadly he got called into work for that full Saturday I got home. I actually had a great day though – I relaxed the full day and caught up on shows and played with Bentley who I had missed so, so, so much. On Sunday I decided, hell I’ll take an LH test (I got the cheapo ones from CVS) and I got a positive. So we had a fun afternoon in bed, pretty relaxed and then headed to dinner with his family for Mother’s day.

See I trusted the test strips more than my gut. My gut knew, with only a week until my period it was highly unlikely I was ovulating or about to. Also without going into TMI, I get some clues when I ovulate, and I got those clues while in STT. But then I got caught up in it and then began the “TWW” or two-week-wait.

Long story short, three negative pregnancy tests later (umm hello it would have been too early anyway), hopes for morning sickness and amidst house-hunting and fantasizing about our family and what not yesterday I got my period. It wasn’t until I was sobbing in the car on the way home that I realized how much hope I had this month. PMS hormones and caffeine withdrawal (I had dropped from my venti blonde roast x3 a day to just 8 ounces to be safe) probably didn’t help my mental state. I was a complete and utter mess. At least the Husband was far more sympathetic than I expected (I think he was actually sad too) and was helpful in keeping a positive mindset around it all.

Today I feel a bit better. It’s a fresh month. I can spend this month eating healthy, working out, taking pre-natals, and overall really starting to prep my body. When my period ends, we’ll just have to have more fun trying this month (i.e. every other day through the month, ha!) The truth is, we’re young, healthy, I’ve been off birth control for over a year now, I have regular periods, and we’re just starting to try so it’s fun and exciting in so many ways. I mean this is it, after years and years of “don’t get pregnant don’t get pregnant” we are officially trying.

It’s so easy to get excited about the end goal, but this time, I really want to enjoy the process. Every second of it.

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